fr0sted memoirs

9:24pm: i write
i write..

For the sole purpoe of living, for the reason that it is a necessity to survive.

i write..

For it is my gateway off this reality. 
A place or a trade in for what i know is true. 
For what i believe that i can have.
For what i know.

i write..

For whatever words i need to say or be left unsaid.
For all the things that can't be brought from the minds that should be brought out.

i write..

Because it is an escape from the mediocrity of life.
For obvious reasons that plague and ponder my morality.

i write..

For the death of my life to the reincarnation in my own world.
For the emergence of my true self.

i write..

To survive.
To live because i have to.
To believe, that there is more to life than this world could give.

i write..

Not because i like to.
But because i have to.

i write..

Because is is me.
Because it is my innermost being.

i write..

To overcome the devils within me.
To fight myself for my own sanity

i write..

Against mediocrity.
For everything that is impossible.
For everything that should be longed for.
For when i stop dreaming the impossible,
I die.

i write..

because..

i live, believe, consume, conceive, cry, died, lived.
i have am hurt, tormented, denied, misunderstood.

i write because..

1:12am: ponder..
"all wise, brilliant, and great people are sensitive and observant students of human behavior.."

                                                                                                          -d.m.-

10:34pm: Words to the Wise: Tips from a speech never given

Something that I read in Reader’s Digest:  a remainder of some of the things that are really important in life.  I hope this would at least make you guys stop and think and ponder for even a few seconds.

 
Words to the Wise: Tips from a speech never given

By Mary Schmich

 
LADIES AND GENTLEMEN:

 Wear Sunscreen.

 If I could offer only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.  The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.  I will dispense this advice now.

             Enjoy the power and beauty of you youth.  Oh never mind.  You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they’ve faded.  But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall how fabulous you really looked at the time.  You are not as fat as you imagine.

             Don’t worry about the future.  Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing gum.  Real troubles are apt to blindside you at 4 p.m. on an idle Tuesday.

             Do one thing daily that scares you.

             Sing.

             Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts.  Don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

             Floss.

             Remember compliments, forget insults.

             Keep old love letters.  Throw away old bank statements.

             Stretch.

             Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life.  Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don’t know what they want to do with theirs.

             Be kind to your knees.  You’ll miss them when they’re gone.

             Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t.  Maybe you’ll divorce at 40; maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75^th wedding anniversary.  Whatever you do, don’t congratulate yourself or berate yourself too much.  Your choices are half chance, like everybody else’s.

             Dance.

             Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

             Do not read beauty magazines.  The will only make you feel ugly.

             Get to know your parents.  You never know when they’ll be gone.

             Be nice to your siblings.  They’re the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you.

             Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on.  The older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

             Travel.

             Accept these certain truths:  Prices will rise.  Politicians will philander.  You, too, will get old.  And then you’ll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.

             Respect your elders.

             Don’t expect anyone else to support you.  Maybe you’ll have a trust fund.  Maybe you’ll have a wealthy spouse.  But you never know when either one might run out.

             Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you’re 40, it will look 85.

             Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it.  Advice is a form of nostalgia.  Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the trash, wiping it off and recycling it for more than it’s worth. 

             But trust me on the sunscreen.

9:42pm: untitled part 3

11:08am: BOREDOM IS THE CAUSE... pt 2

2:44pm: BOREDOM IS THE CAUSE...

10:03am: Dalumatin ang Diwa

8:54am: Failure and Forgiveness
"You are a forgiving God, gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love." - Nehemiah 9:17c (NIV)

"Father, forgive me when i choose my own comfort instead of obeying You.  Thank you for cleansing me of my sin and forgiving my failures."

8:35am: OUR HIGHER CALLING

            If God has called you to be really found in Jesus in all your spirit, soul and mind, He will draw you into a life of crucifixion and humility.  He will put on you such demands of obedience that will not allow you to follow other Christians, and in many ways, He will seem to let other people do things which He will not let you do.

 

            Others who seem to be very religious and useful may push themselves, pull wires and work schemes to carry out their plans, but you cannot.  If you attempt it, you will meet with such failures and rebuke from the Lord as to make you sorely penitent.

 

            Others can brag on themselves, on their work for Him, on their success and on their writings, but the Holy Spirit will not allow you to do any such thing.  If you begin it, He will lead you into some deep mortification that will make you despise yourself and all your good works.

 

            Others will be allowed to succeed in making great sums of money, or having a legacy left to them or having luxuries.  But God may supply you daily, because He wants you to have something far better than gold, and be in a helpless dependence on Him, so that He may have the privilege of providing your needs day by day out of the unseen treasury.

 

            The Lord may let others be honored, and put forward, and keep you hid away in obscurity, because He wants to produce some choice, fragrant fruit for His coming glory, which can only be produced in the shade.

 

            God will let others be great, but keep you small, He will let others do a work for Him, and get the credit for it, but He will make you work and toil without knowing how much you are doing.  Then, to make your work still more precious, He will let others get the credit for the work which you have done.  This will make your reward ten times greater when Jesus comes.  The Holy Spirit will put a strict watch on you, with a jealous love, and will rebuke you for little words and feelings, or for wasting your time, which other Christians never seem distressed over.

 

            So make up your mind that God is an infinite Sovereign, and has that right to do as He pleases with His own.  He will not explain to you a thousand things which may puzzle your reason in His dealings with you.  God will take you at your word, and let other people say and do things that you cannot do and say.  Settle it forever, that you are to deal directly with the Holy Spirit, and that He is to have the privilege of tying your tongue, or chaining your hand, or closing your eyes in ways that others are not dealt with.

 

            Now when you are possessed with the living God that you are in your secret heart pleased and delighted over this peculiar, personal, private jealous guardianship and management of the Holy Spirit over your life you will have found vestibule of heaven:  the high calling of God.

 

                                                                                                            - Author unknown -

8:50am: I'm so hollow
"Goodbye My Lover"
James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.


Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

1:49pm: Single Awareness Day
Valentines Irony (Loves Contradiction)

Love sees even through the darkest person
yet they say that love is blind
they say that love sets your heart free
but somehow love strips you of your freedom
Love as we know makes us happy
but love can easily turn us to the road of depression
they say that love heals broken hearts
but ever wonder where this broken heart come from
Love completes a person
but why is it that a person in love is never content
Love can make a person alive
but love can kill you brutally when it leaves you
They all say that when you fall in love it is forever
... Yeah Right...

6:35pm: "I Have Not Heard This"
"For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope." Romans 15:4 (NIV)

God's Word is not to be treated lightly just because we have heard it so often. Applying what we read or hear is the only way it is alive in us.

11:27am: ym conversation.. err rather statement
mizzmoe_18: but you're known to be someone who shouldnt be taken literally

i don't know how to take that comment..

9:43am: "I Have a Verse for You"
" The Law of the Lord is perfect, restoring the soul. The testimony of the Lord is sure, making wise the simple. " - Psalm 19:7 (NASB)

Let me never read Your Word as routine and without understanding, but allow it to penetrate my heart and change me.

9:07am: He Gets The Glory
Whenever I caused my name to be honored, I will come to You and bless You. - Exodus 20:24b (NIV)

8:53am: When Confusion Abounds
Therefore, since through God's mercy, we have this ministry, we do not lose heart... We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed but not in despair. ... Thereforewe do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. - 2 Cor. 4:1,8,16 (NIV)

Without a God-sized vision, we would settle for mediocrity.

12:01pm: His Presence Through Pain
When i am weak , then i am strong. 2 cor. 12:10b (NASB)

Faith grows as we draw near to Him. Sometimes only tears can cleanse our eyes enough for us to notice.

Again i am reminded by the paradox of Christianity. You have to sacrifice a lot to gain a lot.

You have to lose a lot to receive a lot.

11:32am: tuesday ramblings
WORK WORK..

Eto yun eh, last week kinuha sa akin ang minamahal kong laptop kasi daw para sa lahat ng department yun dapat. So, dapat open yun at walang na angkin. Dapat meron na akong computer na desktop kasi one month na ako dito sa office.

2 weeks ago, there was a new employee that was hired. Naturally, wala din siyang pc kasi nga kulang ang pc dito at pinaprocess nila. Sabi sa akin i would have my pc by this week kasabay nung isang employee na bagong pasok. Eh di ok sa akin yun kasi pay pc na ako non.

Last week was the last week ng 2 pang employee coz they are resigning. So sabi sa akin last week na 2 kami na magkakaroon ng pc this week kapag umalis na yung 2 resigning. Eh di syempre ok lang sa akin yun because what i really am after for me to have my own desktop kasi mahirap mag carry ng files sa flash disk most of the time at lipat ka ng lipat ng files.

Today is my first day of work for the week because mondays are my day off. Guess what i saw, nakita ko yung bagong hired na employee with a new pc. So medyo na hurt lang naman ako kasi siya bago lang tapos nagkaroon na siya ng pc agad. At ako sa 21st pa daw ng feb at makishare muna ako sa pc ng isang employee na naka maternity leave.

Great!

Imagine me being so happy, mas matagal na ako siya wala pang one month nauna pa sa akin.

Bahumbag umbag!

9:11am: Turning Trial Into Triumph
"What other nation is so great as to have their gods near them the way the Lord our God is near us whenever we pray to Him?" - Deuteronomy 4:7 (NIV)

7:03pm: He's All I Need
"Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you. Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10 (NASB)

IT'S HARD TO KNOW THAT GOD IS ALL YOU NEED UNTIL HE'S ALL YOU'VE GOT.

9:49am: This is My Father's World
He is like the light of morning at sunrise on a cloudless morning, like the brightness after rain that brings the grass from the earth. 2 Samuel 23:4 (NIV)

9:38am: God's Power
And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. - John 14:13 (NKJV)

9:59am: God is the Ruler yet!
I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End, the First and the Last. - Revelation 22:13 (NKJV)

8:00pm: MY SOUL THIRSTS FOR YOU
As the deer pants for the water brooks, so my soul pants for You, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. - Psalms 42:1-2a

9:24am: Prescription for Hope..
Now faith is the assure of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. - Hebrews 11:1 (RSV)